A Letter To You Or Someone Like You.
This isn't my usual way of doing this. Normally I'd write an email, or a letter. But I already wrote a letter, that pretty much backfired in my face. And emails are too impersonal. And in person conversations don't seem to work well either. So let's try this. I don't have anything to hide, so anyone else who reads this can; I don't care anymore.
The thing that keeps ringing in my ears is you saying that you can't be the person I 'want' you to be. I wish you would understand that I don't want you to be ANYONE, other than yourself; I love you for who you are, not for anything else. I am not blind to your flaws, to your misconceptions, or to your weaknesses. But I can look beyond all of those things and see a real person behind them, and love that person, regardless of the things blocking that person from really shining through.
I wish you would have more confidence in yourself, and I wish you could just...trust. Above all, that's what this is about now. As much as I may want to be with you, as much as I may love you in ways that you don't love me, I'm willing to put all of that aside, to forget about it the best I can, and to be the friend you used to trust. I'd rather have you as that friend than as nothing at all. You don't need to act any differently, or to say anything differently. You don't need to be afraid of my judgement or be scared to say anything or anything like that. It's just me. You know the one. Hairy, listens to shitty music.
Please, please, just try to trust me again. I could feel the severed tie last night, and it stung more than I ever want anything to sting again.
Let's just start this from the top, shall we? Hi, my name's Bill, what's yours?
The thing that keeps ringing in my ears is you saying that you can't be the person I 'want' you to be. I wish you would understand that I don't want you to be ANYONE, other than yourself; I love you for who you are, not for anything else. I am not blind to your flaws, to your misconceptions, or to your weaknesses. But I can look beyond all of those things and see a real person behind them, and love that person, regardless of the things blocking that person from really shining through.
I wish you would have more confidence in yourself, and I wish you could just...trust. Above all, that's what this is about now. As much as I may want to be with you, as much as I may love you in ways that you don't love me, I'm willing to put all of that aside, to forget about it the best I can, and to be the friend you used to trust. I'd rather have you as that friend than as nothing at all. You don't need to act any differently, or to say anything differently. You don't need to be afraid of my judgement or be scared to say anything or anything like that. It's just me. You know the one. Hairy, listens to shitty music.
Please, please, just try to trust me again. I could feel the severed tie last night, and it stung more than I ever want anything to sting again.
Let's just start this from the top, shall we? Hi, my name's Bill, what's yours?
posted by Uncle Funky Pants at 11:02 AM
1 Comments:
I don't think you ment this literally, but this is the best way I could reply, hi Bill, I'm Kim..
And last night I did hear you and Eric calling me a whore. It hurt my feelings, but I just didn't care anymore. I heard you say 'and I don't even care if she hears me' and I totally felt that you really didn't care. I figured if you wanted to act like that, that I didn't need you in my life. I guess sometimes people just have to be honest with themselves. I'd hoped you didn't mean it, but I know deep down you do or maybe you were just angry, I'm sure I will figure that part out soon. But in the meantime..
Hey Bill, do you want to be my friend?
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