Gotta Break What I Make And Turn It Into Nothing For You.

Don't hold my hand.

I won't take you anywhere.

Not anywhere worthwhile, at least.

Trimming away at bits of the universe.

You're still resonating inside me. It's a little unnerving.

I can't

Think straight

Anymore

My head is

Clouded

With visions

Of you

And of everything wrong

With me

I've been shivering a lot, lately. But not due to cold. I wish I knew why.

I don't feel at peace. I feel...

Like there's some sort of weight on my shoulders, and I can't seem to shrug it off.

My thoughts feel like a tape loop. Round and round. On and on and on and on and on.

I'm a miserable person. I wish I could bring joy to someone.

Hah, let's be honest. I wish I could bring joy to you.

I hope these things don't alienate you. Though it wouldn't surprise me.

That's what I expect. I'm incapable of singing anyone to sleep.

There's that shiver again. I feel like I know what the trigger is, but if I actively think about that particular thing, the sensation doesn't occur.

So strange.

And all you want from me is

probably something I want to give, but can't.

Little android man

Born without a soul

Without that force of reason

The scissors took control

Little android man

Born without a heart

If he's in your vicinity

He'll

CUT

YOU

APART.

And that's all I ever do. Cut cut cutcutcutcutcut. Never ever ever trust a little android man. No matter how much I want you to, no matter how much I wish I could be trusted, I can't be. I'm a frail thing, an abusive thing. Some sort of entity that doesn't deserve anything it wants.All I ever seem to do is cause pain, even with the best intentions. Self absorbed and selfish and loathsome.

At least I know who I am. Not satisfied with that person in the slightest. But I can't seem to change it. I've tried and tried and I'm still trying and trying but I guess I'm just too incompetent.

I hope you like your flowers, though. You deserve them. And so much more.

Clarity is an evil thing.