Cue emoxcore moment.

This nagging, empty feeling just won't go away. Now I'm just in a state of apathy. People are telling me things, showing me things; I act interested, but in reality I don't care, at all. Just leave me alone and let me play my video games.

That's really all I want to do. I don't want to sit at the computer for much time anymore. I don't really want to go out. I don't particularly want people to come over (though it is nice to have some company, even if I do have to act a little bit). I just want to be left alone, in my room, in the dark, playing video games.

Maybe I just need some 'me' time? I don't know. I just want this crap to clear up. It's putting a definite damper on my activities. Everything I do feels half-hearted and forced. I wasn't like this two weeks ago. But it seems to be slowly bogging me down.

I want to quit my job, but I know I can't, not without another one lined up. I need the money. But my luck with jobs continues: putting in applications, making calls to connections..and getting nothing.

Empty empty empty.


You're so cute when you're slurring your speech.